Just Dance

I just got back from my first youth camp ever. Youth for the Nations I loved it. Other people would beg to differ, but the worship and the preaching was amazing. The main thing I got from camp was to Let it go, and Be all in for Jesus. At this camp we play this thing called nation games. Even though it is probably over 90 degrees outside we still played. I was on the nation of Mali. All of the nations were nations that desperately needed prayer. Mali is in extreme poverty and sex trafficing is legal. Pray for Mali. In the games thought my team came in 6 out 16. I was happy with where we placed. I was roomed with my friend Hope and a few other people. We laughed so hard. My youth pastor was in our room and she slept on a cot and she started rocking on the bed and it closed on her. And so many other stuff happened, that kept me in stiches. I also learned alot about the people at my church. Overall it was a great experience.

I am so sorry I haven't written in a long time. I don't even think I was busy I just didn't feel like writing. But a good amount of stuff has happened since the last time I have written. Well school is out now and next year I will be going to Chisholm. I am excited because I will be the first graduating class but there are a few people I wish I didn't have to share Chisholm with. Then yesterday we went to brunch with my dad's parents. It was just a little bit awkward. Today we saw BRAVE it was good just kinda predictable. My summer so far consists of tv, the library, church, and tv. Yeah...that is all I can think of to write.

Why is being a Christian so hard? I went to church tonight and a bunch of the people had come back from from REVEAL it's a weekend retreat thing. And it makes me madder and madder because it puts more pressure on me to get out of my little protective bubble and just not be ashamed of who I am. I think once I get over the fact that I will be persecuted and people are going to judge me no matter what I say or don't say. So why not just get over myself and get out there. I already feel pressure just trying to decide what I am ging to do career wise. I have no idea I am so completely lost. ............ Uggggh I can't write anymore. It is time to eat Pringles now.(the sour cream and onion ones)

Ok I have a big dilema. The weekend of March 24th. The one when we get back from spring break, there are tons of things coming up and I can't do them all. The first one is spend the nght at mr friend Deja's house from what I know we come some time during the day(satuday the 24th) mel and I go to her house watch movies and just have a really good time. I really want to go to her house, because it gives me the opportunity to make a new friend. I already consider her a friend, but I think when you spend time with a person outside of your usual enviroment(school) you can learn more about that person. The only con is that my mom doesn't know her parents, so she is making a big deal out of it even though she lives right around the corner, literally. I could walk there if I wanted. Next , my aunt just called me, not even two minutes ago, asking me if I wanted to dance at her event(on March 24th). I went to the last event it was lots of fun. She says it'll be from around...

My birthday was awesome. Friday after school I was kidnapped by Melodie and Hannah. I learned how to south dallas swag(I am not that good tho) We also played Just Dance 3, ate cinnamon rolls, chicken express and went to the northeast mall. We bought absolutely nothing nothing tho. We were all broke. Sunday I saw the Vow and I my dad brought me a new Bible for my gift. Total Cash Money Received: $55 I got a pair or sparkly TOMS. They are super cute. Ms Hollie(the pastor's wife ) called me to the stage to announce the fact that it was my bday. It was extremely embarassing. I was hoping that I wouldn't have to walk up there, but I looked really cute so I didn't care.

I don't wanna play my guitar. I don't wanna clean my room. I don't wanna revise my expository essay for Mrs. Schleuse. I don't wanna do anything, but guess what I have NO CHOICE! I got this movie from the public library called The Perfect  Man. It has Hillary Duff in it and I hope it's good. I am sooo proud of myself cuz I told a girl about wap. It is soo hard for me to just tell someone about wap or God in general. Probably, because I don't want them to judge me or think less of me. I know I shouldn't think lyk that cuz the Bible tells me so. ugggggggggh *feeling conflicted* Then boy trouble galor. See all my problems, this is why I don't want to do anything. And get this I have to do deal with everything alll over again, it gets really tiring tho. I have trired to keep a positive attitude at all times, cuz you never know when people are watching your actions. And I was sooo flattered when a few of the girls in dance class told me I always seemed...

Geez I haven't written in sooo long. I think it' cuz when I get on the computer I just go straight to facebook. Then I get tired of being on the computer so I turn it off. Yesterday I went to WAP. We watched some videos and then Hayden talked for a lil bit. My mom is a substitute teacher, so yesterday she was teaching Morgan's sister. She said his sister was VERY happy to see her. LOL I've have like absolutely nothing to talk about so I am going to go on facebook now. Mayb I can find something on there and come back later.

I have sooooo much on my mind. Lyk A lot. A  LOT! I am reading this book called Battlefield of the Mind and it tells me to start thinking about what I am thing about. And I realize half of the stuff I don't want to think about. Like when you what to stop crushing on a certain person, but you know that is just an impossibility, because  I see him ALL the time. He is just a constant reminder that their are just certain things I can't control. ( and that is lyk super hard, to know that I am not in control) Mel we need to come up with a nickname for this person cuz I can't keep saying his name. OMG!!!!! there was this church that came Sunday night and they were fantstic. It reminded me sooo much of when guest churches wood come to my old church in Cali. They sounded lyk they shood have a cd. That night I felt that much closer to God. FINALS FINALS FINALS I am freaking out cuz my science teacher sucks at  explaining. And we need to become more in sync with our dance.